It seems like this entire scenario is set to rewind and replay on an almost weekly basis. She's got them wrapped around her finger. They think they're playing her; but in all serious reality, they never had a chance. Some of them deserve exactly what they're about to get; but in some rare cases, I feel as though they deserve better. They really should know its coming though; its not a huge surprise anymore. I wish I was in her place sometimes; although I know deep down this is all some twisted way of expressing frustration, sadness, and anger. I don't want to be too analytical, but there must be some reason for this sort of expression. There is always an underlying cause for all deviant behaviour.
I'm sure you're all thinking it. I'm jealous. Well, lets be honest, I may be slightly jealous. Everyone loves attention from the opposite or same sex (depending on personal preferences.) I do feel as though there is typically a limit to how much attention one should want. I'm worried about her also. I'm sure everything will be fine, but there are always complications and risks. I'm also worried about how this may be psychologically affecting her.
I feel as though sometimes, I analyze other people more than I should. I'm interested in this though; how other people's brains work. I'm in an overly insightful mood at the current time. However, I have a final in 8 hours, so I feel as though I should be utilizing that short period of time more efficiantly.
Sweet Dreams. xo
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
& It Was Enchanting To Meet You;
It's another one of those, "sit back and reflect" days.
It's been two years since my grampa passed away. It's not easier, its just less in your face. I miss him a lot; and when I sit down like this and think about it, I still get teary-eyed. I can't believe how much has changed since then. I can't wait to go home to visit him. It's been almost a year since I've been there. I wish I could go more often, but being an hour an a half away doesn't help anything. My gramma is doing so well; although I regret not calling her on the fifth. I'm sure she would have loved to hear from me. I miss being next door to her; being able to talk to her everyday.
This past month has been a long one. I turned twenty-one, rekindled an old friendship, took a journey to a far off place and made the familiar mistakes I'm used to making.
My birthday was one of the best I've ever had. I had so many people come here from other places to celebrate with me. I appreciated it so much; I needed some home ties. We got dressed up and danced like there was no tomorrow. The night is a slight blur in time, but I remember every minute of it. I managed to take a leap of faith that lead to the loss of trust, self respect and a good friend. I think back on that night and try and imagine what it had've been like if I would have stood up for what I used to believe in; but let's face it, we grow up, we make mistakes and our morales change.
The following weekend my best friend and I hopped on the Greyhound and headed to Toronto; more fantastic memories. I don't think I would change any part of that weekend. I finally got a chance to see Wicked, the musical. It was beyond amazing, it was Wicked. We explored and managed to walk the whole of Toronto. I met some fantastic people that weekend; I'll likely never meet any of them again but they showed me what it is to be exactly who you are. You guys are such an inspiration to me; I wish you all the happiness in the world.
Also whilest in Toronto, I was able to visit an old friend. I hadn't had the opportunity to see her in well over 5 years. We met while on our student exchange in Switzerland; in the washroom of the Gymnase de Burier. When we came home, we both went out seperate ways. We were able to communicate via the internet and cellular devices; but being able to see her after so long felt so great. Unfortunately it was a short-lived visit; once we parted again I wondered when I'd see her again and I felt a small void. It just made me reminisce on all of the fantastic times we had, had in the past. She's one of the best friends I could ever ask for; even miles apart she's always there for me.
November was quite a productive month. I Look forward to what the rest of Decemeber brings. Although, if its anything like what we just went through; I would like to surrender immediately.
The past five days here, have been absolutely rediculous. We survived "Snowmaggedon" as they're deeming it. We managed to acquire nearly 100cm of snow in a meer three and a half days. The other day and a half were spent trying to dig out. College was closed, local city buses stopped running and the mayor nearly declared a state of emergency. Sheer chaos ran the city for a while. Needless to say, we've managed to survive; although we still have a lot of snow removal to do.
Exams are next week. I'm a little horrified however; I have a pharmacology exam worth 35% of my final grade, and its only 20 questions. The term "Make it or Break it" comes to mind. Wish me luck!
It's been two years since my grampa passed away. It's not easier, its just less in your face. I miss him a lot; and when I sit down like this and think about it, I still get teary-eyed. I can't believe how much has changed since then. I can't wait to go home to visit him. It's been almost a year since I've been there. I wish I could go more often, but being an hour an a half away doesn't help anything. My gramma is doing so well; although I regret not calling her on the fifth. I'm sure she would have loved to hear from me. I miss being next door to her; being able to talk to her everyday.
This past month has been a long one. I turned twenty-one, rekindled an old friendship, took a journey to a far off place and made the familiar mistakes I'm used to making.
My birthday was one of the best I've ever had. I had so many people come here from other places to celebrate with me. I appreciated it so much; I needed some home ties. We got dressed up and danced like there was no tomorrow. The night is a slight blur in time, but I remember every minute of it. I managed to take a leap of faith that lead to the loss of trust, self respect and a good friend. I think back on that night and try and imagine what it had've been like if I would have stood up for what I used to believe in; but let's face it, we grow up, we make mistakes and our morales change.
The following weekend my best friend and I hopped on the Greyhound and headed to Toronto; more fantastic memories. I don't think I would change any part of that weekend. I finally got a chance to see Wicked, the musical. It was beyond amazing, it was Wicked. We explored and managed to walk the whole of Toronto. I met some fantastic people that weekend; I'll likely never meet any of them again but they showed me what it is to be exactly who you are. You guys are such an inspiration to me; I wish you all the happiness in the world.
Also whilest in Toronto, I was able to visit an old friend. I hadn't had the opportunity to see her in well over 5 years. We met while on our student exchange in Switzerland; in the washroom of the Gymnase de Burier. When we came home, we both went out seperate ways. We were able to communicate via the internet and cellular devices; but being able to see her after so long felt so great. Unfortunately it was a short-lived visit; once we parted again I wondered when I'd see her again and I felt a small void. It just made me reminisce on all of the fantastic times we had, had in the past. She's one of the best friends I could ever ask for; even miles apart she's always there for me.
November was quite a productive month. I Look forward to what the rest of Decemeber brings. Although, if its anything like what we just went through; I would like to surrender immediately.
The past five days here, have been absolutely rediculous. We survived "Snowmaggedon" as they're deeming it. We managed to acquire nearly 100cm of snow in a meer three and a half days. The other day and a half were spent trying to dig out. College was closed, local city buses stopped running and the mayor nearly declared a state of emergency. Sheer chaos ran the city for a while. Needless to say, we've managed to survive; although we still have a lot of snow removal to do.
Exams are next week. I'm a little horrified however; I have a pharmacology exam worth 35% of my final grade, and its only 20 questions. The term "Make it or Break it" comes to mind. Wish me luck!
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