According To Him...

I cannot believe that the winter break is pretty much over! It's absolutely unbelievable. Everything is just flying by. As I sit here, I am multi-tasking by writing up my resume and cover letters, as tomorrow I am going to all ten or so, pharmacies around town to drop off my round one of resumes and coverletters. I reall would like to obtain a summer job in a pharmacy, so I can 1)gain experience and 2)NOT WORK at MCDONALD'S. haha I am absolutely terrified though! D: The thought of interviews, etc. terrify me. I always get SO nervous and screw up the interview EVERYTIME! I have no idea what to do about this. If you have any ideas, I am up for trying just about anything.

GREAT NEWS. My ex from two years ago and I are gonna try things again. :D It's not official or anything like that yet but soon, I hope. I ended things last time because I wasn't ready for a relationship. I am definately ready now and truth be told, I kind of missed him.. I don't know. I'm very content right now though. Updates to come!

So Don't You Worry About Me.

I have come to the conclusion that running the dishwasher and taking a shower at the same time is a terrible idea. Unless of course, you enjoy becoming drenched in icy water when all you really want to do is rinse the conditioner out of your hair. ANd why is it that once you turn the shower head off, the water coming out of the faucet is hot? Oh, the important questions of life. You would think that after countless years of taking showers while the dishwasher was running, I would learn to wait but alas no.


It's just about time for the blow up... Here we go again.

Goodbye 2009;; Hello Memories...

So another year has come and gone and frankly I'm unsure of how I feel about it. For me, 2009 was full of drama and a lot of life lessons learned with a few happy moments sprinkled on top. Let's recap the year, shall we? I went back to highschool! WOW. That was interesting; but very worth it. I went back for Chemistry and Math, both of which I needed to get into college and I excelled in I might add. Over the next little while, I applied to four or five different colleges and worked at numerous part-time jobs earning money in order to get to college. Then the days came where I recieved ALL of my acceptance letters. I was so thrilled-my parents, not so much. All I got from them, was a "you can't go to college without money." This completely broke my heart, I was so proud of my accomplishments and was expecting a blessing from my parents. I suppose that this was something that pushed me to earn everything myself in order to get myself to where I am now. About a month later I recieved a letter congratulating myself because I had won a scholarship paying for my first year of tuition. Again I was so happy and relieved, especially after the money/parental issue. I continued to work hard and get myself prepared for what would be the start of the rest of my life. The next couple of months were a huge struggle with my parents and myself. My relationship with my parents was on a downward spiral and I was ready to give up. In addition to that stress, my mental health was not in good condition. Things felt as though they would never look up; I was very ready to get out of Norfolk County. In June 24th, I went behind my parents back and got my first tattoo. It was something I had been thinking about for a while. I had wanted something in memory of my Aunt Margo or my Grampa. So it came to be that I got a winged music note in memory of Margo. I was able to keep it a secret for about three weeks. Then, after a huge blowout with my friends; they told my parents that I had gotten a tattoo and all of the details. It ended with our friendship being finished. It was rough, but I believe it was something that made me a better and stronger person. The summer came and left so quickly but so much got accomplished. It was time to get myself all ready for college! I moved on August 31st; whether or not my parents were happy or ready, I will never know. It was the biggest thing that had ever happened to me. I was so ready for it and so excited, because I knew only great things would come from it. The first day of school came and I met some amazing people who I don't know what I would do without. Early October I managed to take my first ambulance ride, when I completely wiped out at school. It led to me in crutched/wheelchair and very frustrated Amy. Then, at the end of October came and I managed to contract the dreaded H1N1 virus, which meant two weeks off of school due to my illness. Even though I was gone, school pressed on, which left me assignments and five exams behind. Somehow I managed to pull through and I made it! Next was November-it was my big champagne birthday (20 on the 20th.) It was an amazing party and I have so many photos and memories. Soon after, I found out my brother's girlfriend was pregnant. Now, usually this is a blessing; however, when girlfriend is 16, brother is 18 and both are definately not mature or stable enough for a baby, it's definately a nightmare. In December, I made some poor decisions and ended up with a broken heart and bruised ego, after I got walked away from by a boy who I thought was something more than he obviously was. It was a really hard time and it brought about a lot of tears but again, it made me stronger. Also around this time, I reconcilliated with my old best friend, Cassandra, which has been a Godscent. With Decemeber also came my first set of finals at college. It was an intense week filled with stress and multiple energy drinks. I am proud to report back that I ended up passing all of my classes and ended up with a 3.43 GPA-something I can be proud of I think! I returned home for Christmas break and things seemed fairly good-however things can change in the blink of an eye. One night, Cassandra and I were driving back to her place and we ended up hitting a patch of ice and slid right into the ditch, almost rolling. We somehow managed to get back out of the ditch and continued on our way after a flood of happy, yet terrified tears. I certainly believe we had a guardian angel that night! Also around that time, I went out with a guy who I had been friends with for a long time; things were going well, until I found out he had a girlfriend, but she was "not working out for him." Yeah, needless to say, I was done. I'm fairly sure that I'm finished with guys for a long while. I think I might become an alcoholic lesbian with a pet tea cup piglet named Daisy! Yeah, that sounds fantastic to me! Things have been spiraling downward with my family again but I'm praying for a miracle.


Thank you for the memories 2009! Here is to a happy and healthy 2010!
All the best.
LOVExo