So another year has come and gone and frankly I'm unsure of how I feel about it. For me, 2009 was full of drama and a lot of life lessons learned with a few happy moments sprinkled on top. Let's recap the year, shall we? I went back to highschool! WOW. That was interesting; but very worth it. I went back for Chemistry and Math, both of which I needed to get into college and I excelled in I might add. Over the next little while, I applied to four or five different colleges and worked at numerous part-time jobs earning money in order to get to college. Then the days came where I recieved ALL of my acceptance letters. I was so thrilled-my parents, not so much. All I got from them, was a "you can't go to college without money." This completely broke my heart, I was so proud of my accomplishments and was expecting a blessing from my parents. I suppose that this was something that pushed me to earn everything myself in order to get myself to where I am now. About a month later I recieved a letter congratulating myself because I had won a scholarship paying for my first year of tuition. Again I was so happy and relieved, especially after the money/parental issue. I continued to work hard and get myself prepared for what would be the start of the rest of my life. The next couple of months were a huge struggle with my parents and myself. My relationship with my parents was on a downward spiral and I was ready to give up. In addition to that stress, my mental health was not in good condition. Things felt as though they would never look up; I was very ready to get out of Norfolk County. In June 24th, I went behind my parents back and got my first tattoo. It was something I had been thinking about for a while. I had wanted something in memory of my Aunt Margo or my Grampa. So it came to be that I got a winged music note in memory of Margo. I was able to keep it a secret for about three weeks. Then, after a huge blowout with my friends; they told my parents that I had gotten a tattoo and all of the details. It ended with our friendship being finished. It was rough, but I believe it was something that made me a better and stronger person. The summer came and left so quickly but so much got accomplished. It was time to get myself all ready for college! I moved on August 31st; whether or not my parents were happy or ready, I will never know. It was the biggest thing that had ever happened to me. I was so ready for it and so excited, because I knew only great things would come from it. The first day of school came and I met some amazing people who I don't know what I would do without. Early October I managed to take my first ambulance ride, when I completely wiped out at school. It led to me in crutched/wheelchair and very frustrated Amy. Then, at the end of October came and I managed to contract the dreaded H1N1 virus, which meant two weeks off of school due to my illness. Even though I was gone, school pressed on, which left me assignments and five exams behind. Somehow I managed to pull through and I made it! Next was November-it was my big champagne birthday (20 on the 20th.) It was an amazing party and I have so many photos and memories. Soon after, I found out my brother's girlfriend was pregnant. Now, usually this is a blessing; however, when girlfriend is 16, brother is 18 and both are definately not mature or stable enough for a baby, it's definately a nightmare. In December, I made some poor decisions and ended up with a broken heart and bruised ego, after I got walked away from by a boy who I thought was something more than he obviously was. It was a really hard time and it brought about a lot of tears but again, it made me stronger. Also around this time, I reconcilliated with my old best friend, Cassandra, which has been a Godscent. With Decemeber also came my first set of finals at college. It was an intense week filled with stress and multiple energy drinks. I am proud to report back that I ended up passing all of my classes and ended up with a 3.43 GPA-something I can be proud of I think! I returned home for Christmas break and things seemed fairly good-however things can change in the blink of an eye. One night, Cassandra and I were driving back to her place and we ended up hitting a patch of ice and slid right into the ditch, almost rolling. We somehow managed to get back out of the ditch and continued on our way after a flood of happy, yet terrified tears. I certainly believe we had a guardian angel that night! Also around that time, I went out with a guy who I had been friends with for a long time; things were going well, until I found out he had a girlfriend, but she was "not working out for him." Yeah, needless to say, I was done. I'm fairly sure that I'm finished with guys for a long while. I think I might become an alcoholic lesbian with a pet tea cup piglet named Daisy! Yeah, that sounds fantastic to me! Things have been spiraling downward with my family again but I'm praying for a miracle.
Thank you for the memories 2009! Here is to a happy and healthy 2010!
All the best.
LOVExo
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