Thursday, September 2, 2010

Missed Me, Missed Me; Now You Gotta Kiss Me!

Anyone else used to say that little phrase when they were like 5, when they played tag or other games like that? I'm not really sure why it popped back into my mind, but it did.

So, I realize it's been about 7 or 8 months since I last wrote. A lot has gone on actually. I successfully completed my first year of college. Moved home for the four months of summer. Now, it's time to move back to school! I am beyond excited! It's been a pretty decent summer actually. I worked at the pharmacy all summer, but due to recent pharmacy laws and cut backs of hours, I didn't work all that often. It left me time to have a nice summer outside for once; I have a legitimate tan this year; which is very exciting to me.

I had many fall-outs with friends this summer. I'm not sure what happened, who changed, or what was the main cause of them; nonetheless, they happened.
First was Melissa. I saw it coming, it was like a head on collision waiting to happen. I think it was just that we spent way too much time together and it pushed us apart.
Next was Sara. After the Melissa issue, she tried to blame everything on me, and attempted to get everyone she could on her side. Did we rewind to back when we were 5? Apparently. Sara was one of Melissa's evil mignons and the next fall-out.
After Melissa and Sara, there were a number of larger, yet temporary fights between friends. We ended up making things work, but they were pretty intense arguements.
The most recent fallout was a two for one special. I definitely saw this one coming, but it never made it any easier. Brett and I became friends last yearand we had become quite close over the summer. When I left for college it was hard, but I thought everything would be okay. First semester was hard but things worked out alright. It involved many late night phone calls and a few visits on weekends. We spent a lot of time together over winter break and I thought everything was great. Once second semester began, we started to drift farther and farther apart. When I came home from school for the summer we spent a little bit of time together. Suddenly, he was always busy, never had any time to spend with me. He began to change. He was seeing a new boy and apparently needed to change EVERYTHING about himself. I didn't see him until about a week ago. He invited me over and when I got there discovered that his boyfriend was there also. Whatever, I didn't mind at all, until I also discovered his boyfriend was under the influence of substances to be left un-named. He was acting like a complete jackass and was utterly impossible to be around. I had hoped that Brett could sense that I was very irritated. However, I don't think he did. It was like that was his way of pushing me away. Like he never wanted to see me again. He knows that I am very against some certain substances; and while I was there, his boyfriend was pushing the substances in my face continuously. I was absolutely furious, but I was also completely crushed. I realize it happens on a regualr basis; where best friends drift away due to new relationships. This one just stung more than usual.

Throughout all of the bullshit this summer, I could always count on Bri to be there for me. Last summer was when her and I had the blow-out of all blow-outs, but we reconciled our friendship and it's now stronger than ever. I had an amazing summer with her. We spent a lot of time together and she helped me out a lot. I knwo I can always depend on her and I hope she knows she can always count on me as well. We spent a lot of time at the beach or swimming at my house or just driving, but it was so much fun! I love that girl, and its going to be hard this September because she's going to be attending college in a different city than me... I'm going to miss you, Bri!

Also this summer, I have been continuing my weightloss journey. Quick recap. Last September before beginning school I weighed over 300 pounds. Currently I weigh 270 pounds. I feel a lot healthier already, but I'm hoping to continue my weightloss this year!

I suppose with everything that happened this summer, it has all made me a stronger, happier and better person. It's been quite the ride, but I wouldn't have changed anything really... Everything happens for a reason.

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